turbulence.

after convincing mom that even though only ONE of us (her) got upgraded, ONE of us should sit up there. who cares if we have to sit next to random, probably not ideal flight companions, SOMEONE should get to enjoy the luxuries. Well I eventually guilted her into letting me sit in first class, since I'll definitely be flying P.C (peasant class) during the mish. NOTE: it's not that I consider those who sit in coach to be peasants, but it's that I feel like a peasant when I sit back there, admiring the monarchy from behind the mesh curtain. 

Anyways...I really had to pee, and as soon as the seatbelt sign when off, everyone of course had the same idea. So I waited and after a couple people had gone I decided that I HAD TO BE NEXT. But when the last gentleman had entered john jr. and I released the clasp on my belt, immediately we hit turbulence. As I clipped my belt back in, I crossed my legs and began picturing the poor fellow who was probably having the worst aim he's ever seen since age three...I think I'll wait the 47 more minutes till our arrival. 

countdown.

10, had me freaked all morning because of my farewell.  So grateful that everything went smoothly, well mostly.  Oh, and the food was delicious.  Can't wait for the homecoming party ;)

9; let the record show that Z.Q was one of the good ones. Lots of hugs, kisses, and cuddles. what a good note to end on :) thank youuu

8; my last breezy venture to provo consisted of lunch with my string bean and a best friend date with my favorite CheeTo. I miss school and everything that comes with living in the bubble, but my mind is already far removed from the simplicity of college life. I'm ready to go, and ready to come back. it's a weird reality to describe, I just hope I like the new me, that the new me isn't boring, or afraid, or too mature for adventure, because then I'll be gone. 

7; chopped off 10 inches of my hair. still need to pack. why haven't I packed yet?!?!?!

6; spent the day with Dad.  After a quick breakfast, we headed over to watch Still Alice.  It was much too depressing for 11 o'clock in the morning; it follows a successful woman who becomes diagnosed with early alzheimers, and we watch her slow deterioration until she can barely form a word.  Should've seen Into the Woods.

translate.

the only thing worse than being in a country where you don't speak the language, is being in a country that you don't speak the language and you look like you should be able to speak the language.  we're back in the PI for this years medical mission and so far it's been the greatest of experiences. it's definitely not the same without Tanner here, but that's okay maybe next time, when we're both old and actually certified to do things. 

yesterday I got to work with an "attendee/intern" couple. Literally Greys Anatomy. she clearly wears the pants in the relationship and their sexual induendo banter is rather nauseating, but I guess I need something to entertain me as we wait for season 12 of Greys to come back haha.  my first major surgery was sooooooo awesomeeeeeee.  A C-section and a beautiful baby girl have made me start to consider a career path into obstetrics; I swore I'd never.

Today though I started the day watching my first vaginal birth; terrible. Easily the most disgusting thing I've ever watched. the mother was in labor but she definitely wasn't dilated enough, so the nurse made to cuts so that the baby's head could come out. then the cord was wrapped around the baby's neck so the nurse, rather forcefully, pulled on the baby's body. this led to the flash flood of amniotic fluid. oh my gosh I'm feeling slightly nauseous just thinking about it.  the baby was okay, but I'm not sure I am. 

first scheduled patient of the day was a vaginal historectomy and the patient also had prolapse (which means your uterus and other organs are literally falling out of your body). kay Ew. basically I just spent 4 hours looking at a vagina. it's safe to say that it was terrible and I'm probably never going to let my future spouse stick his face down there because it is nasty.   Also pubic hair is freaking disgusting and I think I need to start waxing. oh my gosh if I can't stop picturing vaginas I'm going to have nightmares.