atychiphobia.

Atychiphobia is the abnormal, unwarranted, and persistent fear of failure.  From one aspect, by remaining guarded and constantly hiding behind your protective walls there is a much higher success rate of a low tear flow.  But what is the point of holding back?  If I could go back and erase relationships, mistakes, and unfortunate happenings would I do it? I hope not.  I hope that I can learn to face all of my trials and heartbreaks with open arms and use them to prepare myself for better.  Franklin Roosevelt said, "the only thing to fear is fear itself".  I hope that I will take chances and not fear failure.  Mom once told me that everyone has a story, and that your sole mission when interacting with other people (especially those you loathe) is to figure out what that is; figure out what makes them who they are and try your best to understand that.  In bigger relationships there is so much more than just the final destination, of whether you do or do not end up with that person, to consider.  To all of the people that feel like they've wasted months or even years pining after a hopeless cause, it did mean something.  For me it has meant that I'm capable of loving someone no matter what the odds are.  Through the failures I've found qualities that are important to me and that I want to have in my future someone.  If I could give myself any advice it would be to not be afraid of love, not to be afraid of getting attached to someone you know it's not going to work out with, or someone that is broken, not to be afraid of falling so hard that all you can do is pray that there aren't too many pieces to pick up after the madness settles.  And through all of the madness, risk taking, and roller coasters, eventually the clouds will clear, and I'll find him.  Until then, all I can ask of myself is enjoy all of it, because you can't take any of it back.  Lastly, shout out to the boys that are too scared to get broken: stop acting like a girl and grow a pair. Lots of Love.